While the game is in a manufacturing period, I thought I would bring focus to questions and comments I get from you guys. There was one email that really stood out, and I wanted to answer for a lot of people who have questioned their path.
The subscriber didn’t want their email shared, but the topic of the email was about the confidence to leave what you have for what you want. The motivation to keep working through the bullshit of life and people. The strength to fight fear and push through.
So, welcome to my rant.
People always ask about motivation. They want to know where the push and drive comes from. Everyone is willing to travel around the world to find the key.
They see dreams of what they can be, if they can just hear the magic words that will get them through their motivational door. There is a reason there are only a few that have the motivation to find their gift. There are fewer that have the motivation to take a leap and share that gift with the world, and even less who can fight to continue sharing that gift when the world doesn't except it.
The problem is the word motivation. Sure you can find inspiration all around you, but you have to internalize everything in a way that makes sense to you. Everyone's story is different, and no one wakes up in the morning for the same reason. So no one other than you can answer these questions for yourself.
I’ve met brilliant and creative people that can do anything, but they wait for the right feeling, or a magic secret, that can be passed to them by a rich guy at a keynote. People blame motivation like it is an external switch they need someone to flip for them.
When people explain their motivations, many times it’s just material goals that come out of their mouth. While this helps the grind on the way there, you can’t question why you are unhappy at the finish line.
I used to have the same outlook in college and early after. I was going to get a great job, was going to make a million dollars, buy a big house and cool car, and I was going to help people at the same time.
These thoughts populated my mind, maybe because that’s what others around me talked about. Could have been my parents and teachers. Might have even been what I thought would make me happy at the time.
Eventually I started waking up and looking in the mirror, never happy with what I saw. I was one of those people asking myself why it’s so hard every morning. Why getting closer to each of those goals never made me any happier, or made it easier to wake up each following morning.
In the email this subscriber asked how do I know that what I’m doing is worth it, and what motivates me to keep working and believing in the game even with setbacks and negative people out there.
I’m not going to sit here and tell you I have figured out how to open that door and push through everything. I doubt myself and why I do this all the time, and I have plenty of people that look down on it and think it won’t ever happen. I also have a great base of people that think it’s amazing and cheer me on.
I don't think the internal fight ever stops, just matters which voices you let take control.
There is a saying I used to always make fun of, “You have to want it as bad as you want to breathe”. It was hard to believe people wanted to work on anything as bad as they wanted to have a tooth pulled, especially not as bad as they wanted to live.
If you find something you need to do that bad, the motivation will be there, but I find the word motivation changes into words with more meaning to you. Mine has transformed into, passion, obsession, and many times craziness. When it shifted from motivation into these things, it was not just about waking up earlier to work harder, but finding a way to get myself to go to sleep at all.
You will always have to push. Nothing is ever 100% great all the time. You just have to find that door you don’t need a key for. You have to want it so bad that you are going to beat the door down no matter how hard it is.
When you find yourself doubting and you try to quit, it should hurt more than the negative feelings holding you down.
Last week I wrote about one of my hardest times since I started this all, which is the blog that spawned the email I'm responding to. It’s funny, I was complaining that it seemed like everything was going wrong and I had hit my lowest point. Later that night I randomly stumbled on the perfect YouTube video. It happened to come at the right moment and put so much into perspective for me. I wanted to share it with you guys too.
I would love for someone to contact me and try to tell me their path is harder. That they have more to fear or more to lose.
The moral of the story is, don’t start something for an outcome you are looking for, but for the journey that you want to take to the unknown. The only way to lose in that scenario, is to never start.
The last part of the email was asking about tricks I use on the hard days.
That’s a hard question for me to answer. It matters what is weighing me down and what I need from those specific thoughts or emotions.
Many times I have found writing is an outlet for these feelings. Whether that is responding to you, or writing a story that is created without those emotions. For me, showing a vulnerability is the best way to become invulnerable to it. It’s something I just began to understand, and something I have been working to grow into.
Then there are the days I need to reboot myself and get my head in the game. On these days first thing I do is turn on a motivational video. One that targets certain doubts I might be feeling or excuses I start to make. I do a 30 minute workout while listening. I’ve found the two together have a way of resetting me. Below is the video I watched this morning.
I have found that the first hour of my day has the largest impact on my mindset for the rest of it.
These are habits I have slowly learned to build, and it may be that none of them will work for you. That’s okay, I still don’t know what I'm doing, and know I don’t have the best answers for you. I think it is important for each person to share their opinions, and find a way to be a positive outlet for those around them.
I am still at the beginning of my journey as well. I don’t have a best-selling book, or game on store shelves. I have not seen where any of my paths will take me.
I do enjoy talking with all of you though. I learn more from you then you ever will from me, so thank you for the questions and discussions. I’ll keep writing and updating about the game, but I would love to keep hearing from you guys.
Thank you so much, and I hope this helped. Talk to you guys later!